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wow...
i just slept for 19 hours...straight...
it was pretty much amazing!
& i'm still tired!
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| i really enjoy these things...idk why |
[30 Oct 2005|02:33pm] |
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TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: Kevin Oootsie Bootsie (yes that IS what i called him) HAH i miss him
First Screen Name: Girbot02
First Pet: a cat name Tom (get it? tomcat? haha...ahem)
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: this boy in my preschool class named michael AWW he was a cutie...he gave me presents like every day!
First Record: marykate & ashley DUH
First Car: my little red electric jeep hah
First Love: i dont have one yet!
First stuffed animal: a white cat that got caught on fire when i was 4 =( it was a sad day
NINE LASTS
Last Alcoholic Beverage: i dont remember hah 0=)
Last Car ride: like 20 minutes ago coming home from satellite beach
Last Movie Saw: dreamer AWW it made me cry
Last Phone Call: stephanie
Last Cd Played: quest for camelot soundtrack
Last Bubble bath: wow like 7 years ago
Last time you Cried: im pretty sure i teared up a bit when i tripped over the trampoline i was pose to jump on at the haunted forest...
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: hah...hahaha...hah i think the REAL question here is have you ever dated someone who WAS NOT your best friend...
Have you ever been arrested? nope yay me
Have you ever skinny dipped: hah yeah...it really wasnt that great
Have you ever been on tv: yep
Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it? oooo yes
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone? hahaha...megn knows about my dreams =P
SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. a shirt
2. a skirt
3. undies
4. foundation garment
5. ...thats it
6.
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SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. played with myspace
2. gone costume shopping
3. played mario party
4. talked to steph on the phone
5. ate lunch
6. I CANT THINK OF A SIXTH THING
FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. christmastime
2. manatee cove...its my favorite place in merritt island
3. quality time with wendy HAH
4. being in california & north carolina!!
5. being around kyle & his family <3
FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. wendy (even tho she doesnt like to have deep conversations)
2. chris may
3. jake
4. donna
THREE CHOICES
1.Black or White: white
2. Hot or Cold: hot
3.Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. live in new york or at least go there ALOT
2. have one of those awesome families that does stuff together like the partridge family that all sang together HAH
ONE THING YOU REGRET
pretty much the way i handled the situation last december...it was a terribly deceiving thing to do on my part & i had no right to treat any of those involved the way i did. i took advantage of one of my best friends, and just flat out made my other best friend miserable for a good month. i finally had what i wanted for so long right in front of me and i just let it go...
oops.
^i like that answer...i never give good answers to those kinda questions
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| get the picture DUH |
[25 Oct 2005|09:01pm] |
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HOMECOMING COURT SEMI-FINALIST! WOOHOO
HAH =P
me & lindz are gonna make sashes for ourselves that say "homecoming court runner up" haha
cuz that's what we are...evidently!
hehehehehehe
oh well
no one's gonna have a better time at that dance then we are =P
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| NEVER MIND |
[23 Oct 2005|12:04am] |
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anberlin! sean likes anberlin YAY =) |
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okay scratch that
i am afraid of committment
i thought i might not be
but i am
...
BUT I DO LIKE HUGS!! =)
well back to hiding from the hurricane!!
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| j-e-l-l-oooooo |
[20 Oct 2005|09:43pm] |
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i went to dinner @ kyles house today!!
it was the most adorable thing ever
his whole family was there PLUS luke & tyler
we had spaghetti that KYLE MADE! haha
he can cook <333 that's all i need hah
im soooo gonna marry this kid i SWEAR!
anyway then i went to our vball game
WE WON DISTRICTS WOOOHOOO#*$&(#*$&#*&$*
the refs were crazy but we stil won! =)
so we go to regionals next week WHAT!
so this is a little old but i gotta put it out there
i absolutely LOVE it when people who have NEVER been in a relationship with me, tell me i'm weird in relationships...no really, it's awesome
oh well
later kids =)
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| let me put this one out there |
[19 Oct 2005|08:27pm] |
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well...this little "arrangement"...i guess that word works there...i have going on with someone really sucks
it sucks up one side and down the other
it's uncomfortable
it's weird
and i hate every single second of it!! #(*&$#
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| mm mm gooooood |
[19 Oct 2005|06:16pm] |
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awww (#&$*#$
kyle's family is the SWEETEST <3333
so i went over there after vball practice just to say hi
& mrs. brown was baking football cookies for kyle's lil bro christopher's fball team
& when i came in the kitchen she asked me if i wanted one
which of course i did
so she tried to make one in the shape of a volleyball for me =)
awwwwwwwwwww
i felt soooo special & loved hah
she even put white icing and drew black lines on the cookies like a vball!!
awwwwwwwwwww
i always feel so warm & fuzzy when i'm around that family =)))
hah i feel really bad now for not knowing their last names
i always thought kyles last name was autrey
i have NO idea why now
& then like a week ago i drove up to his house & there was a sign on the garage door
it said "the browns"
& i went inside and i was like uhhhh kyle what's your last name
EVIDENTLY it's brown, not autrey
MY BAD
oh well
i'm gonna move in with that family one day
i love them so much <3
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| i'm not sorry i'm not her |
[17 Oct 2005|06:05pm] |
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i'm so tired of people telling me i'm hard to talk to
& telling me i'm intimidating
i'm like the LEAST intimidating person EVER
i'm gonna go growl at people & scare them from now on
since i'm intimidating anyway...
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| dontcha miss eljay? |
[12 Oct 2005|07:48pm] |
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i smell like julie right now cuz i wore her sweatshirt today
HAH
so i made kyle cookies
& by i made them i really mean my MOM made them
heehee 0=)
& i brought them to his house cuz he broke his arm =(
weeeeeeeeeell thats really all thats going on right now hah
and now im going to jakes house to talk about silly problems that arent really problems b/c well...i dont feel like explaining it hah
i really kinda wish i hadnt lied about having "relationship issues" like 2 years ago
it may have gotten me out of something back then
but now it's just annoying
b/c everyone uses that as their excuse now & its not even true
i'd at least like people to come up with better excuses than that
that will really only make sense to like...3 people hah
oh welllllllll
im gonna go before i confuse myself more
laterkids<3
my dad just answered the phone saying "house of japps, here to serve"
what a dork
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| hmmmmmmm |
[11 Oct 2005|07:46pm] |
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I've run away from home.
I lie to my parents regularly about where I am.
I've failed 2 or more classes in one marking period.
I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
I am for Bush.
I listen to political music.
I collect comic books.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I open up to others easily.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I watch the news.
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I love Disney movies.
I am a sucker for blonde hair/blue eyes.
I don't kill bugs.
I curse regularly.
I paid for that cell phone ring.
I am a sports fanatic.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
I love Spam.
I bake well.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I own something from Abercrombie.
I sneak out of the house often.
I have a job.
I love Martha Stewart.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I think Napoleon Dynamite is overrated.
I am self conscious.
I like to laugh.
I smoke a pack a day.
I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
I loved Go Ask Alice.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I win people over easily.
I eat fast food weekly.
I have many scars.
I've been out of this country.
I believe in ghosts.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I see a therapist.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I am comfortable with being me
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[03 Oct 2005|09:30pm] |
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i seriously just wanna punch him in the face
that's all i want out of life right now
ANYWAY
just got back from cold stone w/ tammi
she tipped them ONE CENT and they still sang
HAH
and the guy told me he wanted me to stick around and say how good all the ice cream was to all of the customers cuz i was telling tammi how good everything was
i totally would rock at that job
tammi has this snow white image of me in her head
it makes me laugh
she apologizes when she cusses in my car
and she tells me she doesnt wanna corrupt me cuz im on the right path
haha...yeah right.
i am gonna make jake go to church with me on sundays at east coast
im excited
i never go to church anymore
but i wanna start going again
east coast is just fun...everyone dances!
=)
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| RAR. |
[02 Oct 2005|10:53pm] |
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omfg
im so upset
i really wish i could use cuss words on this
it would be so liberating
but i cant
cuz i would get kicked out of school
anyway
its getting to the point where i hear some stupid crap that was said behind my back like every other hour
& even better this is coming from people who are supposed to be my best friends
im SO sick of it
im sick of everyone judging me when they dont even look in the own dang mirror!!! (#&$(#$&#*#$
and if i hear one more little girlie complaint from a football player about the fact that i've missed like two games out of the ENTIRE season...i'm seriously gonna explode. it wont be pretty
i feel like all i ever do these days is apologize to people
for things i dont even feel like i've done
and im so over it
i'm not doing it anymore
(unless i really feel like i should be sorry for it)
laterkids...
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(1 nightmare
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| lemme tell you whats up |
[02 Oct 2005|08:39am] |
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NEW CO&CA!! #($&* |
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GUH
i wish stupid people(for lack of a better word), like alex for example, would just stop lying
i cant STAND it when people are all like OMG i miss you bla bla bla lets be friends again BLA BLA BLA
when you KNOW that they dont
i just wish he would come up to me and be like
"ya know what mana, i hate you, really and truly. i dont want to be your friend anymore."
that would be great cuz i know it's the truth
everyone ELSE knows its the truth
and when people hate me i'd rather them just come up to me and say it instead of play these stupid games!
UGH
i just dont understand him
im so sick of this
STOP LYING TO ME #($#$&*
ANYWAY
im going to go hang out with scott now
im not really sure why though b/c the last thing he said to me was somewhere on the lines of "you're pathetic"
hmmmmmm.
i have some really awesome friends
if you feel this entry is in any way YOUR business
then feel free to comment
if not, please dont =)
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[29 Sep 2005|09:15pm] |
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im on the phone with jake's mommy right now
it's kinda random but it's all good
im stuffed and i really wanna stop eating
but there's 3 peanut butter chocolate chip cookies in front of me
we just won our vball game...duh
i got THREE postcards in the mail today for traffic school
but i cant go to any of them b/c i've already gone once
and now i just have to pay my ticket
GROSS
i wanna be in california right now
i luv it there
or maybe new york with wendy lindz and tammi
cept...idk about the four of us
i dont think it's gonna fly for very much longer
oh well we're having fun right now at least
im watching everwood
it's jake vs. andy
i guess love triangles with boys who's names start with J and A are cool
=P
sorry i couldnt resist
i hope she picks andy tho, he's liked her for SO long =(
jake is very sweet tho...IDK ITS SUCH A TOUGH DECISION
at least i dont have to make it!!
commercials these days are so silly
you cant even tell what they're for
im gonna go eat my cookies now and focus on everwood =)
<3
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[15 Sep 2005|10:03pm] |
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Let your gaze rest on the central fixation cross,
but observe with your “inner eye” the patches just when they disappear.
With good fixation, you should see a strong greenish color whenever the violet patch has disappeared.
When you are fixating well, after a few cycles you will actually see a rotating green spot!
If your gaze is really steady, the blue-violett patterns will disappear, leaving only a rotating green spot!
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(2 nightmares
sweet dreams)
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| my life...in bands? |
[23 Aug 2005|08:13pm] |
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ANBERLIN YAH |
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Choose a band/artist and answer only in song titles by that band: anberlin WOOHOO
Are you male or female: uhh i dont know a song that describes what GENDER i am?
Describe yourself: The Symphony of Blase
How do some people feel about you: The Runaways
Describe your ex: The Feel Good Drag
Describe your current boyfriend: if there was a song about invisible people it would go here
Describe where you want to be: Naive Orleans
Describe what you want to be: Audrey, Start the Revolution
Describe how you live: Change the World, Lost Ones
Describe how you love: A Day Late
Share a few words of wisdom: Never Take Friendship Personal
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| last entry |
[24 Jun 2005|10:49am] |
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i dont know what it is about summer that makes everything change so much
during the summer it's like, anything can happen, and the strangest things do happen
it feels like everything matters so much more, but for some reason by the time school starts again, it's all forgotten and left in a box labeled "summer"
but you still have to take the time to work everything out
it's not like the winter when nothing really matters at all
everything is just too calm and peaceful to get anyone really upset
winter is like a dreamland
things happen that you never thought would happen in a million years, but once winter is over you realize it cant go on past winter because it was never supposed to happen in the first place
yet the winter has a way of carrying all this stuff on to the next year with you, and changing your life
that's a lot to say for a season where nothing matters
there's so much i want to do this summer, but i know i never will
i want to go to california so so much
i love it there and i dont know why
i feel so happy and alive when i'm there
i never feel lonely but all i need is myself
i dont want rachel to get mad at me all the time
i apologize to her sooo much and i dont even know why anymore
i dont really feel like i have anything to apologize for
i dont feel like i've done anything wrong
and she seems like she's always trying to make me mad or make me feel bad by what she says or does
but at the end of the day she makes me still feel like the bad guy
i dont want to fight anymore with someone i dont feel angry towards
i just want my friend back =(
i want my friendships with jake and alex back, too
but i cant do anything about it because they dont
i cant win that battle if im the only one willing to fight
everyone around me keeps telling me that chapter in my life is over
but the child in me refuses to just give up on something i so strongly believe in
this is my last journal entry
thank you all
it's been real =p
you will know heartache
prayers that dont work
and times of bitter circumstances
but i believe in second chances
children of eden, where have we left you?
born to uncertainty
destined for pain
sins of your parents
haunt you and test you
this is your inheritance
fire and rain
children of eden
where is our garden?
where is the innocence
we cant reclaim?
once eyes are opened
must those eyes harden
lost in the wilderness
must we remain
children of eden
try not to blame us
we were just human to error prone
children of eden, will you reclaim us?
you and your children to come
someday you'll come home...
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